a story about a debut album that was never released, new music, my burnout, and some news

 hello to everybody that still reads this blog (even though there is nothing to read)!

 last post has been.. a year ago? for which im really sorry... 

 to be honest, i wasn't in a good mental state to write about my music on here, plus ive been really busy with.. stuff... and i just didnt have any time for this blog.

 during this year, i, mostly, haven't been working on anything except for, like, 5 tracks. again, i had no time for that, but also, i didn't really feel like making something. i was mostly tired and i had no energy nor inspiration to create new ideas. once i released 私の妹は殺人者ですi stopped working on anything, because i had no other albums to make music for. 

what about folk mutilations coven? 

you might ask "what happened to folk mutilations coven"?

back in october of 2023 i made a post about the album called "folk mutilations coven" and that it will be released summer 2024. 
yes, that album exists, it was planned, it has almost 7 songs on it, but i don`t think the album as a whole would be good and match with my expectations and the vibe i was going with, and i just couldn't create entire new songs and remake the album in 3 months i had until summer, also including i had exams and all that shit, so that resulted in this album not getting released.

 do i plan on releasing song/s out of it someday? 

maybe. there are some ones that i like, and i might release them as a single/EP, give it its own story and add some other tracks i made in the span of this year, but that might also absolutely not happen, it really just depends on how im going to feel about it later down the road.

 are there any other reasons i don't want to release it?

 absolutely! and to start with, i want to tell you a story of another album i made back in april of 2023, the year i started making music in the first place, and never released.

it was mid/late spring, i had a huge crush on a guy i had no chance to be with, i was quite depressed and my best friend started to treat me like crap, which made me feel even worse. in all of this shit, i tried finding escapism, and then i had a very bright idea... im gonna start making music to express my feelings towards everything that happens and that will be the next big thing and hobby im gonna have! 

and mostly it became. i wrote 5 songs for an album called "lone under the bridge". the quick explanation for this name is that in my hometown one of the places teens hang out the most is under the bridges as there are support platforms u can sit on and the police is too lazy to reach there so they would do a lotta heinous stuff there. as you might expect, i also spent some time there. and hence the name of the album i was mostly by myself. 

why won't i release it tho? to be for real i almost did! i was planning to release it on delta vega records, the label that haven't been active at the time and closed soon after. since i got a reply from the manager a lot later than i expected i already changed my mind on releasing it, and that's it.

my mental state has gotten better since the time i wrote the album, at the time i was working on "cyber church experience", and i realized that in comparison, "lone under the bridge" was a lot less polished and felt quite unfinished to be released, the whole concept felt really "corny" and the topics and names of songs were "too personal". i realized i shouldn't had even sent that submission to delta vega in the first place, called this album "a horrible thing from the past" and ignored it's existence.

how is this related to folk mutilations coven? oh yeah, about that... folk mutilations coven had a similar story. i was in a mentally horrible state (again) and started writing songs expressing how i felt. i really tried fitting it into a theme but it just felt boring and repetitive, and i gave up on ever releasing it.

thats it, i guess

also, i made a mashup of SHIVERING VOICES and OF SORE, called it SHIVERING VOICES = OF SORE and released it on my soundcloud page, which you can hear here.

i posted some demos of stuff i worked on on twitter, if youre gonna be intrested it should be in the media tab as its screen recordings mostly. 

 currently, there is nothing im planning on releasing. though, i have 2 album concepts and a compilation, which is mostly my songs, because as expected i got 0 submissions, which is fine, its not like i was expecting a lot, THO YOU CAN STILL EMAIL ME IF YOU WANT TO COLLAB OR SHIT!!!!11!I WILL BE REALLY EXCITED TO WORK ON SOMETHING!!!!!!!!!

 if you want to hear some of the stuff im working on you can also email me im happy to share stuff no one ever should hear if you ask me to send it!